Grateful for the Questions Inside the Silence

Silence-it can be so disconcerting. How to fill it..should I speak? Turn on the tv? Listen to music? Talk to myself? Make a phone call? Turn on the volume on my computer? I was pondering this idea of our inability to just "be" in silence. As a society we are inundated with constant noise. We are numb, immune to it. I even turn on music during my morning "quiet" time, that time in the day that I have reserved for spiritual practice an d meditation. Granted, the music I play is soothing and uplifting. But even still, I wondered-why do I feel the need to immediately turn this sound on and have it fill my mind. What am I missing when I do that?

So, I stopped. I turned the music off and I sat. I sat in the chair given to me by two of my most loving friends. And I thought of them. I thought of how they got to this amazing place they are at in their lives. I thought about how much this little rocking chair that I sat in meant to them. I thought of their journey..it made me smile. Thinking of these two people brought a question to mind..what is my own journey? Am I on track? Whats next?  In the silence I let the questions sit. I did not demand an answer. I know the answer is already there.

In the silence, I heard my breath. I closed my eyes and waited for whatever questions, or answers, came to me. Maybe, I realized, there are no answers. It is all just a series of questions and our journey is just the exploration of these questions. It is a journey of seeking. While in this silence, I simply relaxed and let the silence wash over me. I was entranced by what I heard in that silence. Yes, more questions. But I knew in that beautiful, magical silent moment, that I could embrace those questions, for in the unknown is my journey. So, I am in gratitude for all of the questions on this road, for in those unknown moments IS my journey..and what an amazing life it can be when I embrace it all!