MY Voice

I hear it sometimes, still. I hear it in my sleep. I hear it when I linger at the grocery store. I hear it when I'm enjoying a cup of tea. I hear it when I'm playing. I used to hear it constantly. It is that voice, the one I long to banish. It's that voice that tells me who I can be, what I can do, how I should act. It is that sound, that noise in my mind, that limits me.

We have probably all held a voice like this in our minds, letting it control our actions and hold onto our fears. Newsflash-this voice serves no purpose except to cling to limitations. To push the voice away, to bury it, is to release the past. It means to open up a whole new world and let yourself be. How frightening this can seem. I choose to change that word: frightening. Instead, releasing that voice will be exhilarating! The release lets go of pain, fear, rejection.

In releasing this voice that holds us down, we give ourselves permission to be who we were meant to be. There is only one voice to be listened to-our own voice. Perhaps we haven't really heard our own voice since we were a little child. It is still there..it can sing again.

Today, I knew that voice, the one that haunted me in my sleep, was almost gone. I played some beautiful music, opened the windows, heard the birds singing..and I danced. I danced by myself. I closed my eyes and I listened. Then I slowly I began to hear it..the voice I had been waiting for-MY voice.